I’ve been making a more conscious effort lately to be in photographs, especially with my children. I don’t want them to grow up wondering where I was on our days out. However, as a result of this, I’ve come to notice just how much weight I’ve gained recently.
I mean, I know I’ve put weight on; my clothes have been tighter, or I’ve been buying the next size up. But I’ve had my head firmly in the sand, trying to convince myself that it’s ok, I am happy as I am. I’ve been telling myself that I am just too busy to tackle my poor diet and lack of exercise; I run a business, I blog, I home educate, I have a child with additional needs, I am a wife, I don’t sleep well… blah, blah, blah. Excuses. All of it. Yes, I am busy (what mother isn’t?!), but I am lying to myself when I say I don’t care about how I look and feel.
The truth of it is, I feel bloody awful. I am lethargic. My already painful joints are getting worse. I have no energy. My stretchmarks are growing in number (there’s hardly room for any new ones as it is!) and they itch so much! I am disgusted with my lack of control and my apathy towards doing anything about it, so it’s time to change.
My friend Kate, who you can find at How to Feel Sexy in Big Knickers, tells us that no matter what our weight, shape and size, we are beautiful, and there are so many things we are good at that have nothing to do with how fat or thin we are. She believes that we’re conditioned to believe that slim = good and if we don’t conform to the ideal, then we are somehow inferior. She’s right, of course, but this isn’t about what others think of me. This is about what I think of me. I am inside this fat, unhealthy body and I know how it feels. I feel ashamed.
It’s time to stop lying to myself, making excuses and avoiding taking action. I’m asking you to hold me to account. I need to lose a significant amount of weight and I think it’s totally realistic to aim for half of the amount by the end of the year. I need to get fitter. Getting out of breath when walking upstairs is not good. But, most importantly, I need to set a good example to my children, H in particular. He, too, has put on weight since leaving school, and I have facilitated this not only by buying crap food, but by eating it and letting him eat it with
little no control. Parenting at its finest right there.
Now I just need to work out how to do this thing. I don’t want to do Slimming World – again, and Weight Watchers wasn’t for me. I definitely don’t want to do meal replacement plans as I believe they are a short-term fix and set you up for a fall later on when you try to eat ‘normally’ again and wonder why the weight is creeping back up. I know the best way is to be sensible; plenty of veg, some, but not loads of fruit, good protein, and carbs in moderation and the occasional treat. And move. A lot more. It sounds so simple, so why is it so hard to stick to?!
Here’s how I aim to do it:
- Plan, plan and plan some more. We’re a funny household in that Tink only eats certain foods and sometimes it’s just me and the kids for meals when The Hubby is at work, and I we can often end up making three or even four different meals – something I always swore I’d never do! So I think this time I’m going to plan for me and me alone. If it’s something the kids will eat, all well and good, and if The Hubby is here he’ll have it too. I’ll use my printable meal planner – grab your own copy here!
- Stop buying crap. This is the big one. My biggest downfall is chocolate, biscuits, cake and crisps. Some days lunch consist of a packet of crisps followed by a chocolate bar and an afternoon snack of biscuits. Ugh. If I don’t buy it, I can’t eat it – and neither can H.
- Shop around. Fresh fruit and veg can get expensive, so I need to shop around to find the best prices. Planning will help here too, as I won’t be buying food that then gets left in the fridge to rot because I’ve chosen biscuits instead.
- Cook more. I’ve gotten lazy lately, resorting to jars, packets, pizza or just leaving it to The Hubby to sort tea. I need to start making time to cook more variety – and teach H how to do it at the same time. It can be part of his home ed!
- Drink more water. I try to do this every so often, then forget again. I’m going to make sure that I put my fab water bottle (affiliate link) in the fridge every night and have it on my desk every morning.
- Move. Anywhere, anyhow – just move! My job is sedentary, but there’s no reason why I can’t fit some exercise in each day, whether it’s a walk around the block or a video on YouTube. This is something that H will benefit a lot from too. We’ll up our swimming once the schools are back and we’ll get out and about more each week.
- Keep track. I’m making a note of my weight and weighing every day, which goes against everything I’ve ever been taught, but, apparently, is the way to go. I’m also taking a photo of my face every day so I can see the changes visually. If I can dig out my tape measure, I’ll take body measurements too. I’ll use my ‘Feel Amazing Checklist’ to keep a note – get your copy below.
So, this is me, cards on the table. I’d love it if you checked in on me to see how I’m doing, give me a nudge or a bit of encouragement. If you want to join me, please feel free to join my ‘Feel Amazing‘ group on Facebook and we can help to support each other!
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Kelly is a mother of two – her son H and daughter Tink. H is home educated, Tink is autistic. Kelly is a self-employed Virtual Assistant… Life is busy!